Okay so this may never be a daily blog. I just get too tired everyday to sit at the computer to try to write a creative blog.
I don't remember if I blogged it but my meds were reduced to 150mg. Not too sure that was a good move, but I am having a pretty normal sleep cycle. So that is good. But I am more emotional and can break down from left field... not knowing why.
Looking at alot of changes this year. My son is joining the USAF. My one daughter is graduating high school. The third kid will be a teenager this year. I will be a 40 year old parent of three teenagers. Wow! LOL!
As I was sitting at my daughter's class day today I thought back on my own class day. I was one of those kids who was undecided. As I sat there today, 20 some odd years later, I was still that same kid. I have no idea what I want to do with my life. Sure, yeah, it's passing me by. I am a CNA and a dang good one. But I can't help but wonder... is this it? Is this my life? Is this all I will ever do/be?
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
New Beginnings...
This was an old blog that I had started awhile back. I decided to start a daily blog so I have erased the majority of the past blog. I have kept some of the older entries as references to the past to to help start a more personal blog that will contain my daily thoughts and actions... Doogie Howser style but I probably won't include any lessons at the end.
I am not a smart person. I am just an average Jane Doe trying to live my life the best way I know how. I am not rich. I am not beautiful. I make bad decisions. I can sit here and list all the things I am not, or start a list on all the things I am. But that would make for boring reading. Not that this blog will ever be exciting, but like the page says at the top "these are my stories, like them or not."
Thanks for reading or/or subscribing.
I am not a smart person. I am just an average Jane Doe trying to live my life the best way I know how. I am not rich. I am not beautiful. I make bad decisions. I can sit here and list all the things I am not, or start a list on all the things I am. But that would make for boring reading. Not that this blog will ever be exciting, but like the page says at the top "these are my stories, like them or not."
Thanks for reading or/or subscribing.
Saturday, April 16, 2011
Thinking...
I was thinking today while I was doing another project that I still haven't started the daily blog. I will start doing that. Today is the first day and I might as well just go ahead and use THIS one since... it's already started and gives some background to things. Most blogs will be personal and probably sound pretty stupid at first... but it will be an out where I can think about things.
So... to UPDATE since some of the older blogs...
Yes, I still work for the staffing company. I have worked at the following locations and still love working for them. I love the fact that I don't get drawn into all the drama anywhere. I like to learn new things from different places how to do the exact same things. I also see other things where certain places need improvment and where other places excel.
I have worked at:
Bethany Manor in Story City, IA
Perry Healthcare Center in Perry, IA
Polk City Nursing & Rehab Center in Polk City, IA
On With Life in Ankeny, IA
and Homecare company in Ames, IA
I got five new fish for my aquarium yesterday. All the others are doing great especially Elainie's goldfish. It has grown huge! Thinking of moving it to a new location since the biggest fish in the tank shouldn't be a goldfish, in my opinion.
The new fish are four red eyed tetras and one algea eater. Alexis thinks the algea eater is so cute. okay.
The tank is doing good.
I haven't taken many photos for my brother's weekly ameteaur photography postings. But I might get back into it soon.
The big question: How is my mental health?
Well, since the doc upped my med to 225mg, it got a lot better, but then it turned for the not so good. I was only able to successfully stay awake for 8 - 10 hours a day. That got me through work and then I'd get home and go right back to sleep. So, we decided to decrease it back down to 150mg. That helped a lot with the sleeping and increased energy, but I got headaches and old symptoms started back up that I feel happening and when I feel it I have been trying to control on my own. However, controling on my own got me in a huge mess before starting any meds. I have a Dr. apt. April 15, to re-evaluate. Maybe there is a lucky dose between 150 & 225?
Also with meds. I have learned to hate dealing with Insurance Companies. They love red tape and make simple things as complex as possible. Like for example, my meds. They refuse to pay for the original prescription because I was using a generic and the generic was not recognized as a drug to them. So they had the pharmacist switch it to the name brand and then decided that they wouldn't pay for it. So, it was going to be over $200. per month. But Jason's insurance company (yes, we have 2 diff companies) has a drug plan that helped pay a portion leaving us to pay "only" $116. per month. Luckily, our pharmacist caught on and said lets see it we can figure something else out. So he had Dr. T represcribe the pills into a capsule form and WAHLA! The insurance pays all but $5. STUPID! But anyway, thank you Mr. Hy-Vee Pharmcist.
My physical health? Pretty good other than an occassional spasm & slight pain in the neck. Yeah, I'm watching it. Doing exercises with it, keeping it as good as possible by watching what I am doing. Most the time it is okay and all is well.
We are painting our basement. John & Jason helped some, and I have been working on the rest. I hate painting over bricks and blocks. Doesn't coverthe best which is why it's taking so long to do. But once done, it's going to be a great place for our family to be. And hopefully it gets used!
Elainie has Prom and Graduation coming up. She got a job at Bethany Manor in Story City as a CNA. Starts soon PRN, then after school is out, she goes fulltime on the evening shift.
All for now. Until 2mro!
So... to UPDATE since some of the older blogs...
Yes, I still work for the staffing company. I have worked at the following locations and still love working for them. I love the fact that I don't get drawn into all the drama anywhere. I like to learn new things from different places how to do the exact same things. I also see other things where certain places need improvment and where other places excel.
I have worked at:
Bethany Manor in Story City, IA
Perry Healthcare Center in Perry, IA
Polk City Nursing & Rehab Center in Polk City, IA
On With Life in Ankeny, IA
and Homecare company in Ames, IA
I got five new fish for my aquarium yesterday. All the others are doing great especially Elainie's goldfish. It has grown huge! Thinking of moving it to a new location since the biggest fish in the tank shouldn't be a goldfish, in my opinion.
The new fish are four red eyed tetras and one algea eater. Alexis thinks the algea eater is so cute. okay.
The tank is doing good.
I haven't taken many photos for my brother's weekly ameteaur photography postings. But I might get back into it soon.
The big question: How is my mental health?
Well, since the doc upped my med to 225mg, it got a lot better, but then it turned for the not so good. I was only able to successfully stay awake for 8 - 10 hours a day. That got me through work and then I'd get home and go right back to sleep. So, we decided to decrease it back down to 150mg. That helped a lot with the sleeping and increased energy, but I got headaches and old symptoms started back up that I feel happening and when I feel it I have been trying to control on my own. However, controling on my own got me in a huge mess before starting any meds. I have a Dr. apt. April 15, to re-evaluate. Maybe there is a lucky dose between 150 & 225?
Also with meds. I have learned to hate dealing with Insurance Companies. They love red tape and make simple things as complex as possible. Like for example, my meds. They refuse to pay for the original prescription because I was using a generic and the generic was not recognized as a drug to them. So they had the pharmacist switch it to the name brand and then decided that they wouldn't pay for it. So, it was going to be over $200. per month. But Jason's insurance company (yes, we have 2 diff companies) has a drug plan that helped pay a portion leaving us to pay "only" $116. per month. Luckily, our pharmacist caught on and said lets see it we can figure something else out. So he had Dr. T represcribe the pills into a capsule form and WAHLA! The insurance pays all but $5. STUPID! But anyway, thank you Mr. Hy-Vee Pharmcist.
My physical health? Pretty good other than an occassional spasm & slight pain in the neck. Yeah, I'm watching it. Doing exercises with it, keeping it as good as possible by watching what I am doing. Most the time it is okay and all is well.
We are painting our basement. John & Jason helped some, and I have been working on the rest. I hate painting over bricks and blocks. Doesn't coverthe best which is why it's taking so long to do. But once done, it's going to be a great place for our family to be. And hopefully it gets used!
Elainie has Prom and Graduation coming up. She got a job at Bethany Manor in Story City as a CNA. Starts soon PRN, then after school is out, she goes fulltime on the evening shift.
All for now. Until 2mro!
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Life does go on...
Yes, it has been awhile since I blogged on this blog. I have blogged on another blog a couple times. One day soon I will just have ONE blog and it will be a daily blog.
I've been sleeping lately, but now it is way too much. From one extreme to the other!
I can go to bed, sleep 6 - 7 hourse, wake up, take my med, take the kid to school, come back home, go to bed about 8:30am and wake up at Noon. Yes, I am totally serious. So, my Mom keeps calling me and asking me to go out for lunch. I think she thinks I will start expecting that call and just stay up out of bed everyday. I do need to do that but, with the weather being the way it is, all I want to do is snuggle up under the nice warm blankets!
And I got a job. I had a great interview with a wonderful woman who contacted all my references the same day and she offered me a job. I was honest and detailed about the stuff from my previous employer and she said I seemed like a great person, and my references gave me glowing reviews so she wasn't worried about anything. If something comes up, we'll handle it together she said. No worries. So, that is awesome! I go to orientation in the morning so, I do have to get to bed.
More later!
I've been sleeping lately, but now it is way too much. From one extreme to the other!
I can go to bed, sleep 6 - 7 hourse, wake up, take my med, take the kid to school, come back home, go to bed about 8:30am and wake up at Noon. Yes, I am totally serious. So, my Mom keeps calling me and asking me to go out for lunch. I think she thinks I will start expecting that call and just stay up out of bed everyday. I do need to do that but, with the weather being the way it is, all I want to do is snuggle up under the nice warm blankets!
And I got a job. I had a great interview with a wonderful woman who contacted all my references the same day and she offered me a job. I was honest and detailed about the stuff from my previous employer and she said I seemed like a great person, and my references gave me glowing reviews so she wasn't worried about anything. If something comes up, we'll handle it together she said. No worries. So, that is awesome! I go to orientation in the morning so, I do have to get to bed.
More later!
Friday, January 7, 2011
Happy 2011
The new year is starting off good.
Elainie is on track to graduate... meaning, I don't have to worry about doing a bunch of stuff in the last two weeks that allows her to graduate. Yeay! And as long as she passes every class she is taking this semester, she will have 17 college credits. Awesome!
John is.... by most means... living with Ashley at her apartment and her roomate Kayla. They say they are scared to live out there alone because there are some freaking people living around them. This is Boone so that is highly possible. They are all legal adults and no matter what anyone says to them, they do what they want. John claims he wll be moving back home in Jan. but I don't see that happening.
Alexis is doing great. Enjoying school and cheerleading. I'd like to see her hanging out with more friends from school. We will work on that.
Jason is in Grundy working on his parents room again. Can't wait til that is done.
I am doing the same as reported in my last blog last year. Sleeping the wrong hours. But I guess right now it doesn't matter that much since I don't have to be anywhere during the day. I am trying to adjust it by going to bed at a certain time and then trying to get out of bed at a decent time in the morning.
Found out that none of my doctor appointments are covered by insurance. I hate insurance and all their stupid rules. If a person is sick, they are sick and that's what they have insurance for... to cover medical bills. Insurance is a rip off.
I tried the Cranberry flavor Sierra Mist and it is good. I like it.
I had a job interview. I have to wait 7 - 10 days to see if I get it. It will be part time 24 hours per week. But I will make more than I did at CDS. It works out so that I will be working less hours but making the same amount as I did at CDS. That works for me. Hope I hear good news from that.
That's about all I have to say right now.
I hope 2011, brings good things to our house and to everyone else too.
Elainie is on track to graduate... meaning, I don't have to worry about doing a bunch of stuff in the last two weeks that allows her to graduate. Yeay! And as long as she passes every class she is taking this semester, she will have 17 college credits. Awesome!
John is.... by most means... living with Ashley at her apartment and her roomate Kayla. They say they are scared to live out there alone because there are some freaking people living around them. This is Boone so that is highly possible. They are all legal adults and no matter what anyone says to them, they do what they want. John claims he wll be moving back home in Jan. but I don't see that happening.
Alexis is doing great. Enjoying school and cheerleading. I'd like to see her hanging out with more friends from school. We will work on that.
Jason is in Grundy working on his parents room again. Can't wait til that is done.
I am doing the same as reported in my last blog last year. Sleeping the wrong hours. But I guess right now it doesn't matter that much since I don't have to be anywhere during the day. I am trying to adjust it by going to bed at a certain time and then trying to get out of bed at a decent time in the morning.
Found out that none of my doctor appointments are covered by insurance. I hate insurance and all their stupid rules. If a person is sick, they are sick and that's what they have insurance for... to cover medical bills. Insurance is a rip off.
I tried the Cranberry flavor Sierra Mist and it is good. I like it.
I had a job interview. I have to wait 7 - 10 days to see if I get it. It will be part time 24 hours per week. But I will make more than I did at CDS. It works out so that I will be working less hours but making the same amount as I did at CDS. That works for me. Hope I hear good news from that.
That's about all I have to say right now.
I hope 2011, brings good things to our house and to everyone else too.
Friday, December 31, 2010
Celebrations!
I had a rough night sleeping again but I finally slept 6 hours in a row! Now, the hours were not in the proper place but it was 6 hours! I feel good because that alone is an accomplishment! Now I have to get the 6 hours to be AT NIGHT! I slept from 6am to Noon today. I need it to be like Midnight to 6am though. I will keep working on that!
Other than that the only news I have to report is that my temp job ended. I am now on what I'm going to call "vacation" because that sounds much nicer than "unemployed". Plus it's more positive that I WILL find a job and hopefully by the end of January. I filled out more job applications and am hoping to hear my phone ring. Gotta stay positive.
Today I had no plans but I have thought about starting working on cleaning the basement room to get ready to put a space heater down there so when we get around to painting, it won't be soooo cold down there so the paint will stick and dry. OR cleaning one of the girls bedrooms upstairs and sorting through their clothes. Bag up old ones for a garage sale in the spring or find hand me downs ... the girls always love it when we do this... not.
I will blog again next year! Until then, stay safe!
Other than that the only news I have to report is that my temp job ended. I am now on what I'm going to call "vacation" because that sounds much nicer than "unemployed". Plus it's more positive that I WILL find a job and hopefully by the end of January. I filled out more job applications and am hoping to hear my phone ring. Gotta stay positive.
Today I had no plans but I have thought about starting working on cleaning the basement room to get ready to put a space heater down there so when we get around to painting, it won't be soooo cold down there so the paint will stick and dry. OR cleaning one of the girls bedrooms upstairs and sorting through their clothes. Bag up old ones for a garage sale in the spring or find hand me downs ... the girls always love it when we do this... not.
I will blog again next year! Until then, stay safe!
Monday, December 20, 2010
December Blues
Another visit to the doctor resulted in another increase in my medication. I now take the 225mg dose. The pill is larger than an M&M which worried me at first because I am not a good pill taker the larger the pills get. But I am able to get this one down with ease. Must be the slick coating.
I still do not sleep the best but it is getting better. I don't use the mouthguard much anymore unless my teeth start to hurt. The first three days I did have achey headaches that are minimal in pain but cover the entire head. I've been able to get through most of them without the use of Advil. Only 1 day did I take Advil but that was because I was at working staring at the computer screen and I took one so it wouldn't get worse.
I am sleeping only a few hours at a time but I go right back to sleep after a few minutes of awakeness. Before I would be awake for a half hour or more. So this is good. However, I am finding that I am more sleepy in the mornings and am finding it harder to get out of bed.
In other news, I did fill out more job applications and did have one job interview. I loved the job description but they had a list a mile long of people that they interviewed so I don't think I will get it. It's sad because for every 10 job applications filled out, I only get one phone call.
My Temp job ends Dec. 30. If I don't know I have a job at that date then my world completely ends as I know it. This makes me worried as this might cause a worsening of my depression. I found that if I am left all alone with no one else around, I have episodes of increased depressive attitude & behaviors. So... people are good to be around so having a job is also important for that reason.
I think my Christmas shopping is done. I still need to wrap some presents. I didn't do much decorating this year. I don't even have any nutcrackers out. Now that is insane! I have the tree out and some lights outside on the porch & bushes. But I wasn't picky this year so it doesn't look the best. It's almost like going through the actions without really having the joy. There is a Christmas song like that... it goes like this:
"Where Are You Christmas"
Where are you Christmas
Why can't I find you
Why have you gone away
Where is the laughter
You used to bring me
Why can't I hear music play
My world is changing
I'm rearranging
Does that mean Christmas changes too
Where are you Christmas
Do you remember
The one you used to know
I'm not the same one
See what the time's done
Is that why you have let me go
Christmas is here
Everywhere, oh
Christmas is here
If you care, oh
If there is love in your heart and your mind
You will feel like Christmas all the time
I feel you Christmas
I know I've found you
You never fade away
The joy of Christmas
Stays here inside us
Fills each and every heart with love
Where are you Christmas
Fill your heart with love
I still do not sleep the best but it is getting better. I don't use the mouthguard much anymore unless my teeth start to hurt. The first three days I did have achey headaches that are minimal in pain but cover the entire head. I've been able to get through most of them without the use of Advil. Only 1 day did I take Advil but that was because I was at working staring at the computer screen and I took one so it wouldn't get worse.
I am sleeping only a few hours at a time but I go right back to sleep after a few minutes of awakeness. Before I would be awake for a half hour or more. So this is good. However, I am finding that I am more sleepy in the mornings and am finding it harder to get out of bed.
In other news, I did fill out more job applications and did have one job interview. I loved the job description but they had a list a mile long of people that they interviewed so I don't think I will get it. It's sad because for every 10 job applications filled out, I only get one phone call.
My Temp job ends Dec. 30. If I don't know I have a job at that date then my world completely ends as I know it. This makes me worried as this might cause a worsening of my depression. I found that if I am left all alone with no one else around, I have episodes of increased depressive attitude & behaviors. So... people are good to be around so having a job is also important for that reason.
I think my Christmas shopping is done. I still need to wrap some presents. I didn't do much decorating this year. I don't even have any nutcrackers out. Now that is insane! I have the tree out and some lights outside on the porch & bushes. But I wasn't picky this year so it doesn't look the best. It's almost like going through the actions without really having the joy. There is a Christmas song like that... it goes like this:
"Where Are You Christmas"
Where are you Christmas
Why can't I find you
Why have you gone away
Where is the laughter
You used to bring me
Why can't I hear music play
My world is changing
I'm rearranging
Does that mean Christmas changes too
Where are you Christmas
Do you remember
The one you used to know
I'm not the same one
See what the time's done
Is that why you have let me go
Christmas is here
Everywhere, oh
Christmas is here
If you care, oh
If there is love in your heart and your mind
You will feel like Christmas all the time
I feel you Christmas
I know I've found you
You never fade away
The joy of Christmas
Stays here inside us
Fills each and every heart with love
Where are you Christmas
Fill your heart with love
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